Letters to Friend – #201

Hello Friend,

 

I’ve thought about death a lot recently

At a point I was sure I would not live this long

Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad I wasn’t right

The odd thing is I’m not scared

Of death, dying

I feel like I’m baiting Fate by writing this

Teasing her, pushing her to move.

Oh well…

Love’s been avoiding me for a bit

*smiles*

It’s fine really – I’m patient

My mother not so much

I just don’t want to repeat their mistakes

Maybe that’s why I’m holding back?

Dreams,

I have those in abundance

There’s a lot of the strange stuff 

The type I can’t explain

And some of the sane – 

The plans and wishes and games

Sometimes I have a particularly good one

A dream – a fantastical one

And I know it’s not real, not there

But I want to stay anyway

To not leave or have to wake up

No, not die – I’m not that crazy

I just wish it was my reality

I lied about Love

She/He…..

Must be a he

Yeah

So Love isn’t avoiding me

He’s just trying to make me miserable

This is going to take a while to sort out 

And no, don’t want to elaborate

I’m sleepy now. 

So sleepy

But I really want to talk to you 

Even though you never answer me

Write when you can

Love,

Sayuri

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7 Comments

  1. All is well that ends well…law of delayed gratification.” In the end all will be well,if it is not well,then it is not the end”-John Lennon. We all make mistakes,that’s why pencils have erasers.

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